Some thoughts on the night before December 12th

Hi....
Long Time no see, it’s been about three weeks since my last post...
So many things happen, in the past weeks....
I moved to another house, I entered my first mid-term exam as a university student in Istanbul, I got addicted to ‘How I meet your mother?’, I saw massacre of the cow on the Idul Adha, and in my one-week-holiday I enter a camp with a group of teachers and learn a little of some important things in our life which I’ve never noticed before...
Anyway, it’s already the 12th of December....
And you know what...
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It’s my eighteenth birthday...
I’m eighteen from now on... well, it’s actually only until the moment I become nineteen (which is exactly one year from today)...
Anyway...
I’ve passed my first eighteen years in my life and surely I am entering the real world where every son of Adam in an obligation to be more responsible of his own life and all of his behaviour... The world where every son of adam can no longer hide under the wings of their patron when the storm comes... The world when every son of Adam have to stand high on his own feet...
Have I really prepared for the challenges ahead? Am I ready for this? What will happen if I enter the world without enough preparation? Will I get beaten up and fail?
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When I started writing this post those questions struck my head one-by-one and almost made me panic... because I don’t know the answer... I never really prepared myself for this... And like I’ve told you before I’m the youngest in my family, and I have always treated as one... I always look for help when I had a little problem that I thought I could not solve... I’ve always stayed behind th back of someone who makes me feel secure and comfort... I am totally unprepared for this...
I’m hopeless....
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I thought...
until a songs of my favourite group in the world came into my mind...
A cheerful and spirited song I’ve always listened to whenever I am feeling sad and down...

Okay, here is the song and it's lyric...


Original Lyrics:
Nani ga shitai? to kiku keredo
Hanaseba bikkuri suru jan (Here is wonderland)
Shiranai koto toka hajimeru to
Choubuan na kao suru jan

Bokura wa mada yume no tochuu
Minna minna sou nan da
Iiwake nado Goodbye bye
Chansu wa soko ni aru

Yes! Wonderland
Ichido kiri no jinsei
Ohara ippai manabou

Yes! Wonderland
Yume no tsubasa wo hiroge
Break though! Jibun wo kuchiyabure

English translations:
What would you like to do? You asked
But you get startled when I say something
(Here is Wonderland)
You look very nervous
About starting something unknown

We’re already partway through our dreams
That goes for everyone, everyone
So say goodbye bye to things like excuses
That’s where chances come from

Yes! Wonderland
We’re only young once
Let’s learn all we can

Yes! Wonderland
Spread the wings of your dreams
Break through
Conquer yourself
(Morning Musume, Koko ni Iruzee)


See....
It’s really spirited you up right!!!!
I mustn’t be afraid about it, right...?
Let’s just get through it without any single moment of hesitation......
I know you can break through and conquer yourself, Fahmi...
It’s only another step in your life and you may feel unprepared, but you know what you are able to get through it when it comes... even with some scratches, even with some pain, even with some sacrifices...you know that you can...
Wishing you a happy birthday...
You know a bright days ahead awaits you, and you can reach it with your own hands...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAHMI....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY....



December 12th 2008


Fahmi <3